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Ever Dwelling
02:42
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Do I have an original thought in my head? My bald head?
Maybe if I were happier, my hair wouldn't be falling out.
Life is short. I need to make the most of it.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
I'm a walking cliche.
I really need to go to the doctor and have my leg checked.
There's something wrong. A bump.
The dentist called again. I'm way overdue.
If I stopped putting things off, I'd be happier.
All I do is sit on my fat ass. If my ass wasn't fat, I'd be happier.
I wouldn't have to wear these shirts with the tails out all the time.
Like that's fooling anyone.
Fat ass.
I should start jogging again. Five miles a day.
Really do it this time.
I need to turn my life around.
What do I need to do? I need to fall in love.
I need to have a girlfriend.
I need to read more, improve myself.
I should get my hair cut short.
Stop trying to fool everyone into thinking I have a full head of hair.
How pathetic is that? Just be real. Confident.
Isn't that what women are attracted to?
Men don't have to be attractive.
But that's not true, especially these days.
Almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these
Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence?
Maybe it's my brain chemistry.
Maybe that's what's wrong with me: bad chemistry.
All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance or some kind of misfiring synapses.
I need to get help for that.
But I'll still be ugly, though.
Nothing's gonna change that.
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04:31
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- l've wasted my life. God, l've wasted it.
- You did not. And you're not gonna die.
- l wasted it. l spent my whole life paralyzed, worrying about what people think of me. And you, you're just oblivious.
- l'm not oblivious.
- No, you don't understand. l mean that as a compliment.
- There was this time in high school. l was watching you out the library window, you were talking to Sarah Marsh.
- Oh, God, l was so in love with her.
- l know. And you were flirting with her, and she was being really sweet to you.
- l remember that.
- And then, when you walked away, she started making fun of you with Kim Canetti.
-And it was like they were laughing at me. You didn't know at all?
You seemed so happy.
- l knew. l heard them.
- Well, how come you were so happy?
- l loved Sarah, Charles.
lt was mine, that love.
l owned it.
Even Sarah didn't have the right to take it away.
l can love whoever l want.
- But she thought you were pathetic.
- That was her business, not mine.
You are what you love, not what loves you.
That's what l decided a long time ago.
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Foregone/Outbound
04:24
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